Monday, June 29, 2009

Don't look back

Don't look back don't look back don't look back.

I chanted to myself over and over again after I said goodbye and boarded the escalator to the next floor up. Tears in my eyes. Don't fucking look back. This is goodbye, not see you soon. Goodbyes like this don't get a look back. And they don't get tears.

Goddamnit don't cry. And do fucking not look back.

And then I did. And I was reminded of the story in the bible where the one true god demanded that a family flee from their city that he was destroying and told them they'd be doomed if they looked back on it. The woman did and she turned to a pillar of salt.

But I stepped off the escalator and was still whole. Except for the tears that had escaped along the way. But those don't matter. I'll make more later.


Rassles said...

Well honey, I don't know why you had to leave and say goodbye, but I know you'll handle it with kickassery.

Tee aka The Diva's Thoughts said... sad. :(

Anonymous said...

That one true god was a prick.

Heather said...

Wouldn't you want to turn and look back at the ones that are forever goodbyes? This post made me sad. :/
Hope you're alright...and I'm sure if you aren't yet, you will be.

TC said...

I agree with Heather. I'd want one last look at the forever goodbye.

Le Meems said...

You do what you want. Go ahead. LOOK back!
You are magic and magic makes itself hurd

Bob Dobalina said...

What the magical Meems said.